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For Chester...

Posted on July 22, 2017 at 2:25 AM

Sorrow.


Despair.


Anger.


Emptiness.


Confusion.


Hopelessness...


Chances are for the millions of people around the world that the former lead of the amazing band, Linkin Park, made you feel at least three - or more - of those emotions goes to show you just how charismatic he was as a gifted musician and one of a kind human being. Chester Bennington, you gave of your heart and soul a countless number of invaluable reasons that you will be missed. Dearly...


During the fall of the year I graduated from high school and started my first semester at college, October of 2000 saw the release of Linkin Park's first and ground breaking album entitled Hybrid Theory. For me, the lyrics in particular as well as the entrancing beats of their music in this album, Meteora which followed, and most of their music since struck an instantly memorable cord I will never forget. Bennington's unique sounding voice also lent an air of distinction that made you know their music whenever you may have heard it.


His tone of voice and many of the lyrics were such that as I was in the throes of my profound depression, and only three years before attempting suicide by overdose, I like many of their fans found a special place and understanding of Bennington. I felt as if I knew him. Through his voice, his words, I could identify with his emotions even before I had overcome my depression half a decade later to actually be capable of idolizing anyone or anything. Linkin Park's music survived my depression symptoms to become one of my most favorite bands for this genre of music.


But now Chester Bennington is gone...


The emptiness is almost overwhelming when I think about it. I consider this the second most depressing celebrity suicide I have lived through (Robin Williams' being the most heartbreaking for me to date). Of course I never personally knew Bennington. I regret not having seen them in concert during my younger years. I cannot say I actually knew him, and neither was I related. Yet, Bennington touched my heart and soul with every word he sung through his pain-driven lyrics. I could easily consider him a friend, a brother, an idol, and absolutely someone to look up to. And despite his fateful decision to give up, I wouldn't change my respect and admiration for him whatsoever.


But he's gone..


What Bennington's suicide leaves in its wake, particularly for this year alone, is a troubling trend of suicide rates both high profile and particularly of younger age groups. Earlier this year, a local high school student had sought out counsel from school officials but to no avail before taking his own life. Not a single one of these or any suicides ever rings a more depressing tone with me than anything average in a day. These lives mean as much as if they were all family. And it hurts every time I hear about someone such as Chester Bennington losing hope so much to the point that they let go! I want to reach out across the great divides of distance, time, and fate, to lay my life on the line. To be there for every one of them and inspire enough hope to warm their hearts. To help them to have faith and hope for their lives worth living.


Not only that, but consider for every high profile suicide which gets reported to realize just how many suicides - and suicide attempts - go unreported. I have no doubt the ratio for that would be staggering. This year has seen too many so far for me to not fear the rest of the year and beyond. What should I do? Dig my feet into this gritty ground and push back harder to do whatever I can to bolster awareness and prevention initiatives of suicide. For me, enough is damned enough. I know there will be more casualties of this forsaken war of sorrow, but those gone before me shall not be forgotten. Not now, not after two weeks of grieving, and not ever.


What I do I do now selflessly for the hope of a happier tomorrow no matter who I am able to reach with inspiration. Every step I take with my growing advocacy efforts will be done while keeping Chester Bennington very close to my heart. Every time I hear his music with that one of a kind voice, I will remember his name and pray for his spirit to find peace. I will also be busy picking up where he left off. Making a difference.


For Chester..


For everyone...



Linkin Park - Iridescent


When you were standing in the wake of devastation

When you were waiting on the edge of the unknown

And with the cataclysm raining down

Insides crying, "Save me now"

You were there, impossibly alone

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure's all you've known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go

Let it go

And in a burst of light that blinded every angel

As if the sky had blown the heavens into stars

You felt the gravity of tempered grace

Falling into empty space

No one there to catch you in their arms

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure's all you've known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go

Let it go

(Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?)

(You build up hope, but failure's all you've known)

(Remember all the sadness and frustration)

(And let it go)

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Let it go

Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?

You build up hope, but failure's all you've known

Remember all the sadness and frustration

And let it go

Let it go

Categories: Mental Health & Awareness, Famous People

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